January 17, 2019 "Wake Up"
It always happens that way, doesn’t it? You hear something some place and it’s new to you. You turn around and you hear it on the radio and then a friend mentions it to you. All of a sudden something you didn’t know or hadn’t thought about is everywhere and you wonder why you never knew this before…
I believe that we need constant reminding. We may hear something once and we’re not in the right place to understand it or apply it to where we are in that moment. When we are ready it will present itself and then it will work.
It’s the new year and so many of us, myself included; have thought about how to improve ourselves or our lives. How can we create new habits to help eliminate habits that are no longer serving us?
I didn’t set any resolutions exactly… just being open to growth and stepping out a little more to challenge myself. In a way I feel it’s a cop out. By not setting a goal or aspiration, I can’t fail. It’s the perfectionist in me. If you don’t do it, you can’t do it wrong. You also don’t know how great it could have been had you tried. The internal struggle constantly battling in my head.
Then comes life and some may say a divine intervention. I decided to participate in a small group at church, reading a book a month and it only meets once a month for three months, totally doable. The first book we’re reading Lioness Arising by Lisa Bevere was my first exposure to this wake up sensation. I’m only a few chapters in and it’s stirring something inside me to not be so afraid. I have something in me that needs to be let out, that needs to be shared. I shouldn’t feel that I’m not important enough or good enough. I should be like a lioness and be confident in my strength and yet possess a grace that is so beautiful others are inspired to walk alongside me. I need to shine and lift others up with me so their voice can be heard as well.
My second encounter with this wake up feeling was in a conversation with a student. She also had started a book that was awakening her an urge to step up. We can become complacent. I’m not talking about being content here, because we all need to work on being content with what we have. (that’s a whole other post) In our conversation we discussed how we need to have passion for things, to really feel things and be willing to step out and share them or fight for them, to make a difference.
I think my practice can help me to know where to go with this stirring inside. My time on the mat will help me to know where I am. You have to know where you are to know where you want to go. Also recognizing that timing is so important. These things can’t be rushed we need to have goals and aspirations and sometimes setting dates keeps us motivated. We also have to see that even when things don’t happen in our timeline, we have to keep looking for them , visualizing them for the future as something that will be not maybe will be, but WILL BE.
My third driving force to wake up happened just last night when I was inspired by the song This is Me from The Greatest Showman. I’ve heard the song before and felt it’s power. It was just another reminder of I need to stand in my own power and strength and not be afraid to be me. There will always be obstacles. There will always be people to disagree. There will be failures. Sometimes the things that are the most important, that affect the most people are things that we are most afraid or give us the biggest challenges.
I still don’t know what it is that I’m being called to do. I do know that I am now awake and listening. I’m alert and ready. Ready to step out and try something new or even difficult, to stand in my own truth of who I am and make no apologies. I encourage you to listen to your inner voice and give it some time to be heard. What difference do you need to make in the world?
Here’s the link to the song for some inspiration for you. Dancing encouraged!!